Been in a 5 year roller coaster. Am I alive yes but need lot of sex to make up for being worthless. I have no such luck when it comes to a relationship. I always am in one alone. Fuck it. I have the hopeless life that he was so kind to allow. I lost the idea i have a right to think. I have to say i will enjoy the thought of his slow death. And will keep going till the day comes and i get to see the life the hope the feeling of being mind fucked and controlled like a puppet.

我的理想對象: An honest person that is a joke how about one that won't choke me. One that doesn't tell me I'm worth nothing.