I guess this is the result of a nervous break down! When i did this my life sucked SO bad i just wanted to be someone else, completely! For a time I thought i was going to jail and going to become homeless because of things that were done to me by people i should have been able to trust, my family. Here I could leave all my problems aside and not worry about anything and get positive attention from people i so desperately needed. For a wile i felt things were so completely hopeless I have a bullet hole in my front door because i pulled the gun away from my head at the last minuet. Things are better now, there's hope and promise of better times ahead. I'm not gay nor am i attracted to men, never have been, i just need an escape from my worries and problems. I talked on here with some men but never meet up with any. I guess this was an extreme way to escape reality but i did it, and for a wile it helped. A BIG thank you to those people that listened and offered positive feedback and helped! I now have a wonderful woman in my life that loves me very much and have gotten help with my legal problems and hope to resolve them soon. I no longer feel the need to be someone else and hide from my reality, but now have the confidence and courage to face my problems head on to what ever end they my lead me to. I no longer need Krissy.