Outside Looking In  

EroticMusings2 57F  
1484 posts
8/9/2021 12:25 pm
Outside Looking In

I sit at my desk, a large bedroom window right in front of me. A beautiful tree right in front full. Leaves waving as me, and I sit feeling like life is passing me by. Always the outsider looking in at life, wanting so much to be invited in.

Invited in to be a part of something, yet I do not feel comfortable or like I actually fit anywhere. Today has been a trying day, the pain is very bad. I could only manage minutes on the exercise bike and just a few light arm and shoulder lifts. But it is better then nothing I guess.

I am attempting to keep busy, as to not let my one true friend Mr. Loneliness in. That is hard, and I wonder why there is just no one. Used to be a very full house of family, granted over half have passed away. Oh if the walls could talk in the old house. Laughter, tears, and fun.

Now I am trying to restart my life into something I can feel at peace with at least. Can I work? If so, where? I would love to work from home, but I think most of those jobs are taken. But I am going to try, or push my artwork, or crafts. I really would like something with a hourly wage that I could build on. I need something for me, that much I know. And to start counseling, and the reasons why are very personal and I will leave it at that.

Anyway, thanks for reading this boring post. I needed someone to talk to, and you are here and will read or not read this as you wish. Take each day at a time and remember that we all have our own baggage.

Ann


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69ereatwetpussy 59M
6448 posts
8/9/2021 6:43 pm

Little bit at a time each day it get easier.
To look out it will be there tomorrow. People that walk by my be there may not. They ave places to go.
If you need work find something you like.
Something fun worth going to each day.
Hope your restart help you in many ways .
Have a better day then yesterday xoxox


EroticMusings2 57F  
629 posts
8/9/2021 8:07 pm

    Quoting 69ereatwetpussy:
    Little bit at a time each day it get easier.
    To look out it will be there tomorrow. People that walk by my be there may not. They ave places to go.
    If you need work find something you like.
    Something fun worth going to each day.
    Hope your restart help you in many ways .
    Have a better day then yesterday xoxox
Thank you and I am doing just that. At times I get very frustrated because I want to see results right away, though that is not possible. But I make the most of each day.

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jajo696 67F
4128 posts
8/9/2021 11:00 pm

Very similar situations....i cant initiate mail though, can only respond. I would love to talk~~


EroticMusings2 57F  
629 posts
8/10/2021 12:19 am

    Quoting jajo696:
    Very similar situations....i cant initiate mail though, can only respond. I would love to talk~~
I will message you tomorrow. thanks for reaching out.

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