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I want to know why? (ptsd related poem)  

senfully 55F  
618 posts
5/30/2021 6:38 pm
I want to know why? (ptsd related poem)

I want to know why?
written March 31st, 2021

I want to know why
you had to do
the things you did.

I know you hated yourself
and everything about your world
and I know
you loved me.

I know there were generations
of alcoholism and abuse.
Nobody told me,
but I know.

I want to know why
I have to live like this
the chaos and fracturing inside
on these bad days.

I want to know why
there isn't any answer
no balm or salve to sooth
this rampant infection in me.

I want to know why
it has to be this way.

senfully 55F  
443 posts
5/30/2021 6:39 pm

 I don't know what to do with some of these. I've avoided these topics for so long. That doesn't seem to have helped. Maybe writing about it will help. I don't want to hurt with my writing.


kamaruhl3 63M
4985 posts
5/31/2021 5:17 pm

 i really do hope you find joy someday.


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