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Regrets...  

storkjwr18 48M
409 posts
8/15/2018 12:28 pm
Regrets...


Ive had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption...

Always an interesting topic. I hear people talk about their regrets quite often. I wish I did X instead of Y, or If I only knew then what I knew now. I hear these things and I think why do you have regrets. Why live in the past in that way. I not talking about being nostalgic. Obvious if you have read my blog I very much nostalgic. I enjoy reliving sounds, smells, fun of my past. It is a great way to remember who you are, and where you come from.

However that is just it. Every moment I have lived. Every mistake I have made. They have all led me to this point in my life. I regret none of it, because quite frankly I like me. Should I have done things differently, maybe. Then again if I had, would I still be me today. Honestly we can go all the way back as far as starting to be on the path to adulthood.

As a freshman in high school at the tender age of 13 (when I started High School) I worked very hard and got straight A's. Had and lost my first girlfriend (because I was young stupid and jealous) grew my hair real long. Wore Jeans, tee shirts, a ball cap and a jean jacket everywhere I went. I played basketball all the time, but never tried out for school. I was afraid to. My Sophomore year I thought there was no point to any of it, so I skipped half my classes. Had my first drinks, stayed out way to long having fun. was real rebellious and that was my life in Lakewood.

By age 15 going into my Junior year we moved to Kansas. At that small school I played basketball and ran cross country. I started doing well in school again (so I could keep playing) It was a great time. I was invited to all the parties. The jock parties because I was one of them, the stoner parties because that was my friend group, the nerd/geek parties because lets face it - have you not been reading the blog lol. Real interesting to watch how different the groups were when not mixing. (at least in my small corner of the world). I drank a lot back then, and there are some pretty wild stories of my exploits lol.

Did not get my first job until I was out of school, I will blog about jobs later I think. Moved back to Cleveland because, well money was scarce after awhile and my family was here. Should I have stayed. Yes. If I did though then the rest of my life would not have happened. I did not date after that girlfriend my freshman year, so I was real shy with women. It was 96 when I started fooling around with a girl in the neighborhood. She was bad news and I should have stayed away from her. Of course if I did I would not have my eldest who I love dearly.

Now I affectionately call my eldests mother IT. IT was nothing but trouble from the beginning. I lost a lot of things due to IT. My self-esteem, A great job, my place of residence, eventually my eldest, and much more. In fact IT tried to destroy my marriage on many occasions. But I do not regret IT. Not just for my eldest, but without IT I would probably still be working in a factory.

If I did not have to move back in with my parents I probably would have never got any degrees at college. Living with them I needed something to do and went to Lorain County Community College (LCCC) and earned an Associates of Art with majors in Language Arts and Mathematics, and minors in Humanities, Religion, and Education. LCCC is also where I met my wife. So if I did not experience IT I would probably have never met my wife at all.

In fact when IT and the great state of Ohio, took my eldest from me (after I got married) I felt trapped. To clarify I had just gotten married, had two at the time. Worked two jobs to make ends meet. The state decided that it was better for a real mom to raise a instead of a step-mom because I worked a lot. Yes they punished me for working and being responsible. Could I have went into bad debt and hired a lawyer and one, maybe. But I would have that debt and no guarantees of winning. Trapped in a job I was no longer liking ( support issues if I left), trapped in an area I thought about leaving (distance from my ). That too though worked out. This job afforded me the schedule and time to earn a Bachelors of Arts majoring in Management and Accounting, and then and Accountancy MBA.

Honestly looking back every bad decision I have made. Every mistake as just led me to the life I live. I like me. Am I done, of course not. We are continually growing and learning everyday.

Sorry for the rant, just something on my mind...

How about you? Do you have regrets? Think I am an idiot for the way I look at?

Let me know

storkjwr18 48M

8/15/2018 12:28 pm

Sorry for the long rant...Will have to figure out some form of thanks lol


Tmptrzz 61F  
107039 posts
8/15/2018 2:08 pm

That's some life you lived and thanks for sharing it with us. You know the only regret I have is marrying my first husband, little did I know it was going to be fourteen years of abusive hell. The only good things that came out of that union was my four children and without them I would of never survived.

So glad you got to stay a part of your first childs life as thats so important, as I am thankful for my kids and being a single parent they turned out great. You know there is a saying that "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger!!" That is so very true, I hope your enjoying a wonderful hump day..

Seduce the mind and see what a wonderful adventure the body will take you on..


storkjwr18 48M

8/15/2018 3:05 pm

    Quoting Tmptrzz:
    That's some life you lived and thanks for sharing it with us. You know the only regret I have is marrying my first husband, little did I know it was going to be fourteen years of abusive hell. The only good things that came out of that union was my four children and without them I would of never survived.

    So glad you got to stay a part of your first childs life as thats so important, as I am thankful for my kids and being a single parent they turned out great. You know there is a saying that "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger!!" That is so very true, I hope your enjoying a wonderful hump day..
Thank you and that is so very true.

I am truly sorry you had to deal with abuse to get your children. That is probably so of the worst we can endure as people.

Hump day has been ok, I hope yours has been, and continues to be great


storkjwr18 48M

8/15/2018 4:55 pm

    Quoting  :

Thanks man I appreciate it


japaneseass 56F  
50231 posts
8/15/2018 6:47 pm

i get it...i really don't have regrets...i guess because i don't dwell on the past...we can't change what happened already...we can learn from it, and move on...that's about it...and like you said, things must have happened for reason...and that would lead us to what we are now...sure i had a thing or two happened, and i thought about killing myself back then, but now? i am glad i did not...because life goes on...


storkjwr18 48M

8/16/2018 7:13 am

    Quoting japaneseass:
    i get it...i really don't have regrets...i guess because i don't dwell on the past...we can't change what happened already...we can learn from it, and move on...that's about it...and like you said, things must have happened for reason...and that would lead us to what we are now...sure i had a thing or two happened, and i thought about killing myself back then, but now? i am glad i did not...because life goes on...
I am truly sorry to hear that things got so bad you had those thoughts. Very glad that you did not act on them though. Life does go on, and is always best not dwelling in the past. Just do not forget it. For if you do you are doomed to repeat it

I hope you have a great rest of your week, and life for that matter


storkjwr18 48M

8/16/2018 7:18 pm

    Quoting  :

Thank you for sharing, 68 Galaxie nice. I'm sorry you didnt get it.

You are correct with mistakes. It's like how you learn more from failure than you do from success.


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