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Missing in my life....
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Missing in my life.... This is a sad blog so....stop now...just giving you the heads up. A good friend lost her dad this morning. I really truly feel for her. To lose a parent is something I am sure we all have to do, but none the less it is painful. I don't know what it is like to lose a father. I never knew one. I missed having a dad in my life. I had men in my life. Not all good. But not all bad either. A step-grandfather who was used as a babysitter when my grandmother had to work on the occasional Sat. Turns out he was abusive...looking back now, I wonder how many turned their eyes to this sexual predator. Any man that preys on little girls (I can remember it being before I turned 6.....) is a very sick individual. When this man died in 2005 I was asked to write the obituary. Nobody ever believed my story.  I had an uncle who was like my big brother. His oldest was just a year and a half younger than me. I loved him very much. I loved his boys very much. I also loved his grandsons....I haven't spoken to my uncle in a little over 2 1/2 years now...  His oldest died very suddenly and he changed. I miss him. My mini me misses him.Now you have to understand, I don't really know what it was like to have a mother either. You see my mom was killed in a motorcycle vs pedestrian accident four days after I turned 9 months old. My maternal grandmother had to step in and raise me. She wasn't prepared for this. She did the best she could. But she was raised in another time frame. And I think the loss of her oldest two took part of her sanity. (She lost her first born at the age of 6 months old to whooping cough...then my mom at the age of 22 y.o.) She was abusive. Mentally, verbally and physically. But I know she loved me in her own way. We fought. I ended up getting married my senior year of high school partly to get out of the home. We later made peace, for the most part. I came to understand things about her. She was doing the best she could. I can never thank her for taking me in. She died 12/17/05. Two weeks after my oldest's birthday, one month after mini me's birthday....I picked up her ashes on Christmas eve. Mother's day is coming up this Sunday. I miss my oldest who is now living on her own in GA. I miss the mom I never had the chance to know. I miss my grandmother. I miss my uncle. I miss having family in my life. So...take this chance to reach out to all the important people in your life. No matter who they are. Moms, dads, aunts/uncles, grandparents... You never know when they will be gone from your life. I love you all....And thank you for being MY family!  |
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XOXOXOXOX I love you!
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I lost my Dad when I was 11. My mom 4 years year ago. But every summer with the rest of family we all get together at the lake we have a great time. The food is great.  This is not meant to offend any one in any way.     
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I am glad you get the chance! Hugs to you....
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XOXOXOXOX I love you!
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Thanks....right back at ya!
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I lost my Dad when I was 11. My mom 4 years year ago. But every summer with the rest of family we all get together at the lake we have a great time. The food is great.
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